July 29, 2014


It's here. 


We were the first family in the school to get him registered. Unfortunately we won't know his teacher until Friday. 

The school definitely has their stuff together. Our city broke away from the county schools and formed their own district. This is their first year and so far everyone has been great. 

I'm really excited for Lucas. 

After we got home we played outside which has been great since we had our yard sprayed for Mosquitos. 

It's been beautiful here not typical July weather in Memphis. I really hope it stays this way. 

July 25, 2014

Summer's Almost Over

It's been a long time since I've been on here.

I'd like to say I was taking advantage of summer but we weren't. We've been stuck indoors most of the summer since we discovered Lucas' awful mosquito bite reaction.

We've been in and out of the doctors office a ton since May 30th. A TON. We should have our own parking space. Between the peds, cardiologist, and allergist + prescriptions I feel like we could have totally gone on vacation with the amount of money that went to those copays.

Either way we did have an awesome cook out with our lovely friends that both kids had a blast. That was when we discovered how awful Lucas' mosquito bite reaction was. Very rough.

But he's such a trooper.

There are some others. He's had Staph from scratching the mosquito bite on his leg. Holy crap that was so swollen. 

He's doing much better now I think we are figuring it out slowly how to keep the swelling down and the Allergist we go to is amazing so he's being extremely helpful.

We also had the yard sprayed for mosquitoes. Best thing we've ever done.

Keeping on the Lucas front.


What?! How the hay!?

He will be 6 in ONE month.

At his last doctor's appointment he was 52lbs 47in tall.

I'm excited for him I know he's ready to be with other kids. We haven't had an eventful summer and he's itching to be around others.

Also we signed him up for Fall Soccer :) we are all excited about this. His first sport. 

On the Samzilla front:

Stole the bowl and got up on the couch after the party lol.

I just noticed he is basically always in his PJs lol we don't get out much.

He's growing like a weed. 18 months now. Still nursing a few times a day. 

Sleeping about 10-12 hours a night with a short nap in the early afternoon which has been amazing!

He is FINALLY talking. He has babbled for ages but anyone that has talked to me knew I was kind of stressed about him not saying many words.

Finally he just exploded with about 10 or so consistent words. He has other ones in there and can say "I get it!" 

He's a climber... big time. He is into everything. He's a complete Daddy's boy loves all things daddy. 

It's great. I love it.

Sam is our eater. He eats just about everything. It's nice having one that isn't super picky like Lucas. Both kids do nothing but eat. I can't keep up with them. The teenage years are going to be interesting!

He was sick earlier this summer ran 104.8 fever which scared us both. Lucas caught it a few days later. That was so much fun. Not rightly sure what it was about but some viral thing that cleared up in 3 days.

As for Tom and me we haven't had much time for anything but doctor's visits. On his days off we play Minecraft on PS3 together. I've recently finished The Last of Us (AMAZING).

It's been fun playing Minecraft with Tom we have built some crazy stuff and it's just nice to spend time together when we can't do anything else.

I'm currently in full swing of planning Christmas & Sam's birthday gifts, plan early save money. Lucas opted out of having a party this year and wants to go shopping instead which works for me. So we are giving him the money we were going to spend on a party and letting him have it. We will still have some close friends over for cake though. :)

I'm hoping so very much that my dear dear friend Cara over at Why Can't Wheat Be Friends will be coming with her son for Thanksgiving this year. So excited for this. We've been friends since we were pregnant with our boys and man gonna be awesome! 

I am going to try to get back into blogging. Lucas being in school will help, maybe put us on a better schedule than we have been hah.

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May 02, 2014

I Hate(d) Sippy Cups

One of my biggest dislikes of motherhood are sippy cups.

They suck. I hate them.

Well... I hated them. I have now found a sippy cup that I love.

We WERE using the Playtex brand sippy cups, mainly because I still had them from Lucas.

I'm sure anyone that has been a parent knows these cups. There are three pieces. A small silicone stopper that's shoved into the lid that is supposed to be spill proof.

Water. Everywhere.

I don't put anything but water in sippy cups for this reason alone. Nothing else needs to go in there if you let your kiddo have freedom with their cups. Samzilla throws his around and does normal toddler things with it and they leak. Not a ton but enough.

Well, Playtex decided they didn't leak enough and redesigned these cups with soft spouts.

HAHAHA these are by far the worst things every created.

The handle piece comes apart, so you can convert it to a handle-less sippy cup, and doesn't fit well into the cup so you can't really tighten it and with this awesome twist and click technology they use the slightest tap and the whole lid pops off.

Then let's not even go into the soft spout if the kid turns the cup over at all and the spout is on the floor... well...

It's the biggest waste of money ever. (Almost $8 for two) If I didn't have dogs that followed Samzilla around waiting for him to make some sort of mess I would be so mad.

So while out looking for Easter things for Lucas' Junior K class I checked back in the baby aisle to see what they had.

What I found is the holy friggin grail of sippy cups.

It's by NUK

It's the Advanced Development Hard Spout sippy cup and parents with toddlers the best damn thing I have spent money on.

 In all of it's glory here it is.

This thing doesn't leak.

I repeat.


It's been thrown, used a drum stick, rolled, knocked over repeatedly...

Doesn't leak.

I was so confident I even put something other than water in it and let Samzilla run around the house and that never happens.

Not a drop.

The only downfall is I can't find them. Kroger doesn't carry them, I didn't see them at Target, and Wal-Mart was out. I may end up ordering them online if I have to.

What's even better? It's under $3 for one cup. The Playtex cups are almost $4 a piece and you usually HAVE to buy them in pairs.

I have not used any of their other cups because this is a recent discovery. These don't have handles so your kiddos will need to be confident holding them on their own. Other than that not one complaint other than I cannot find them in stores!

Those of you that have toddlers and are using sippy cups, give them a whirl they are amazing!

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April 20, 2014

Hoppy Easter :)

Last years Bunny Sam. :) 
Before cramming it into the buckets. 

Happy Easter Everyone!

I'm a total fail blogger.

Don't even care. I've been spending time with my kiddos and taking time for myself. :) Hope everyone is having an amazing Spring!

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February 10, 2014

My Confession... I suffer from Post Partum

The last year of my life was a whirlwind for a lot of reasons but the hardest part of the year was dealing with Postpartum Depression (PPD).

Depression is not a new thing for me throughout my life it has been a constant companion of mine. When I was pregnant with Lucas PPD was a great concern of mine because I am already so familiar with depression. The labor and delivery were not ideal, I was scared because he was my first baby and I didn't know what to expect. I was truly blessed when I did not end up with postpartum depression.

I was not so lucky the second time around.

The first two months of Sam's life were great. I was  happy. Elated. Intoxicated with love.

I knew the baby blues were coming I had them with Lucas between the lack of sleep, constant breastfeeding, and hormonal changes happening some crying was definitely in my future.

Around two months postpartum things got really rough for me. I was in this never ending funk. My heart ached for no reason, I cried for no reason, and my brain betrayed me. This was supposed to be happy times for me. I have two beautiful kids... kids I never thought I would have and here I am in absolute despair.

For a few weeks I just suffered silently mainly in denial that this was happening to me, which is a vicious cycle and completely unhelpful.

Then I broke the silence and reached out.

I am not someone that reaches out about depression. I'm very careful about what I say and to whom. Yet here I was desperate for someone to talk to. Someone to break me out of the despair that surrounded me.

There is such a huge stigma surrounding mental illness and there shouldn't be.

When someone breaks a bone or gets the flu we all empathize because most of us have experienced some sort of physical problem. Why is it such a stretch to think that the brain, the most complex organ in our bodies, can't break? What makes them so  immune?

Mental illness is seen with such disgust. It's why so many of us suffer in absolute silence. Our brains have betrayed us and when we reach out for help we get shunned away with answers like:

"Snap out of it."

"You are weak get over it."

"Think of all the people who have it worse than you."

"It's all in your head."

YES exactly! It IS in my head this is the problem! There is no escape, I'm trapped with these thoughts, the guilt, the sadness and I'm terrified to talk about it in fear of being labeled weak among other things.

I'm not weak. In fact now I know how strong I am because I survived postpartum depression. It is some of the most debilitating depression I've ever experienced and I'm on the other side of it. I'm here battered and bruised but I'm standing.

It's funny looking back and seeing  how many times I tried to reach out and it fell on deaf ears. I'm saddened by it and hope to open even one persons eyes by writing this. It's a big deal for me because I'm so private with these thoughts and feelings. I found refuge in so many different places that it really is heartwarming to think about.

For those of you that reached out to me in my time of need from the bottom of my soul Thank You. Thank you for listening. Thank you for cracking jokes. Thank you for bringing light to my darkest days.

Thank you for showing me how strong I really am.

I'll end this with if any of you out there are suffering silently please don't be afraid to reach out like I was. If any of you need to talk I'm here and ready to listen. You are not alone. You are strong and you are loved and it's okay to feel the way you do. It's normal for some of us.

I'll leave these two links below don't hesitate to use them.

You can go to Postpartum Support International's site for local resources.

National Suicide Prevention Hotline

I may post more about this in the future hoping to normalize talking about it since there is such a stigma around it.

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Have you suffered from postpartum depression? What helped you get through it? 

February 03, 2014


My little Sam is walking now.

It's cute.

He toddles.

In the  last few weeks he's been taking a few steps here and there and now he's walking more than crawling.

Time is flying by I'm not ready. 

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